Thursday, February 19, 2009

okay HI.

yes. hi. i haven't been blogging for like i think a week. and frankly i dont really know why i do. i dont need an online diary. or dairy. or fairy. and actually, if you're reading this, do tag! so i know that this is actually read. thanks. really. sometimes i come online with the intention of blogging, then get to the typing page, then realise that no one actually reads this, other than me. and i barely read it. why would i read what i wrote myself? meh. maybe i'll just leave it here. oh, and don't eat at Happy Daze. to any YCS member who doesnt know where that is, its around the market downhill from the church Daphne got married in. yea. okay bye, phantom readers. *stab*
ITSMEBECYAYstarted this journey at5:28 AM

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Sorry X -ey/HR

This is the first day after the death of my goldfish X-ey(pronounced X, then E), named so because he/she/it was used in an experiment to turn it white, though for some reason it died. The story(it took place yesterday) goes like this:

Some time ago, I read on the back on a Snapple cap that if you keep a goldfish in a dark room, it will turn white(real fact #34 if im not wrong). And, I mean, this can't be wrong, right? It was on the cap of an extremely popular brand of drink!
And so I decided to buy a goldfish. The actual purchase took place I think a week or two after the momumental epiphany, due to time restraints and frickin NCC. So then my and Syakir went together to some fish shop near our school. I bought a goldfish for 1.80 and he bought some terrapin food for 3.00. The goldfish was in a plastic bag which was like ¼ water and ¾pure oxygen(he used one of those oxygen tank things) then my mum fetched me home and I put the goldfish in a tupperware thing but i thought it was like way too small so i transferred it into a bigger one, then I realised I didn't get fish food so I didn't know what to feed it. So I asked around, and the general answer was that bread was OK. So I pinch of a really really small piece(it was really small, like this strange symbol ► <= life size. really.) and dropped it in but it didn't eat the bread so I tried moving the bread closer to its mouth and eventually it ate it then I put it in a storeroom(it has ventilation) and closed the door. Some time later, I took it out just to see if it was eating and stuff, and it seemed fine(it was constantly swimming to the corners but it had been doing it since the time I bought it so it was fine) so I like changed the water(it just seemed right to me) and I put it back in. The rest of my day went on. Then at night, as I was playing warcraft3, I remembered my goldfish and went to check it. I took it out. It was upside down. I tried putting it back upright but for some reason it turned itself back upside down again. It seemed like it was trying to commit suicide or pretend it was dead or something. My mum threw it down the rubbish chute. What made it worse was that this afternoon my teacher was talking about students doing some stuff to one of the fish in our school pond and it died, and how cruel it was. Greeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat.

In a completely unrelated topic, is it wrong to do something nice for someone? I did for some guy, then he said I was weird. So why should I do something if it isn't appreciated at all? I guess I won't then...
ITSMEBECYAYstarted this journey at7:54 AM

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Again, again.

Okay first off I have given up using this as a blog, unless a blog is defined as a web page used by the user to describe his/her feelings and thoughts about his/her random everyday life. Wait, I think it is. Nevermind. SO ANYWAY! I forgot what I wanted to type. This happens a lot for some strange reason, but overall I think I should -- DO MY HOMEWORK ._.
Now who actually believed that? Raise your hand. I'm serious. I'm watching you from the opposite building. Anyway I decided NOT to post it since apparently people actually know and recognise this blemish on the InterNET. Yes. And XHR broke my calculator. Omg. I felt like stabbing myself right there and then. Well he didn't actually BREAK it, he just dropped it. Normally I wouldn't mind, but he scratched the SCREEEN! I hate that. I absolutely hate that. For some reason I have an obsession with extremely clean, unblemished, perfectly flawless screens. Well not ALL screens, like, those with that glassy, smooth touch. Like for PSPs, and, in this case, my calculator. Omg my blog really IS boring. Meh. I guess I don't really care/am too lazy to do anything about it. Ah, that's right. I think it's really horrible of me to not be doing anything, and to be doing nothing about and notdoinganythingness. Which really sucks. Another thing that sucks is that I don't honestly care that I'm wasting time and effort and money from everyone around me. Well actually I kinda do and as such am torn between life and death, literally. Lol. See, the way I get it is:
LIFE
Work hard(right!)
Not let everything have gone to waste(which WOULD suck but take frickin effort)
Not disappoint everyone(pretty much same as above)
Everyone wouldn't be sad(that would be a bad thing, considering we're preparin for O lvls and all)
etcetcetc

DEATH
Free myself from the need to care about anything else anymore(that in itself is a good reason already)
Not disappoint everyone(this is a maybe thing and although I'm sure many people will tell me they weren't disappointed(if/when it happens) they might be keeping it inside, which would be a bad thing caused by ME.)



Oh and we had 2.4km(estimated;we just ran a round around the school) and it got me thinking; if everyone were either hares or tortoises I'd a the tortoise shell; slow and steady but cant move on my own lol

So yea, I guess that's all I'm gonna write, if you actually bothered to read this far(no idea why you would) then congratulations but there is neither cake nor cookie.
ITSMEBECYAYstarted this journey at6:55 AM